I haven't been away really. It's just that my laptop was sitting at the boy's house so I haven't been able to check my emails, reply msn messages and log onto facebook for a week. It was a long week. I was suffering from the world wide web withdrawal symptoms. But alas, my laptop is back in my room, and there it will forever stay!

 

I haven't a clue what I've been up to lately. Ever since I came back from my leave, things have been a complete blur. Firstly, I feel like I don't fit in back home anymore. I'm lagging on jokes and things that usually make me crack up with laughter now seem totally un-funny to me. Back in Dubai, I'm just living one day at a time. I honestly have no idea where I'm heading or what I'm doing. I basically just dived in for the plunge and soon I'll be in for the big regret. I'm walking on very thin ice now. But I guess once in a while, we just gotta take risks. I just fear that if I fall into icy waters, I may shiver and lose my senses.

 

Why the hell do I think so much anyway?

This is me at -16 degrees celcius in Moscow (under many layers of clothing).

 I didn't freeze my senses silly.

Well, at least, not yet.

Happy Valentines' Day everyone!!

I never thought I would be saying this but yes, I am a closet romantic although I much disapprove of this over-hyped up, everything's over-priced and everywhere's over-crowded day. In my opinion, it's just way over the top.

In celebration of this very lovey-dovey day, I will go shopping later, then probably have dinner at some greasy fast-food joint because all the proper restaurants must be fully booked, then end the day by watching P.S. I Love You with my cousins.

Oh I love my family so.

 

 

So how was Chinese New Year? Had fun extorting money from your very distant relatives?

Chinese New Year has since lost it's meaning for me. I used to enjoy the wearing of new clothes and shoes and the visiting of relatives we would otherwise see only once a year. But as the years go by, traditions have worn out. For example, my family had sushi for reunion dinner this year. It was a toss up between sushi and Long John's Silver but I guess Dad preferred the former. How very traditional huh? *rolls eyes* I missed all of Mum's traditional Peranakan dishes as well. At least she still prepares all the Peranakan cuisine the way it's supposed to. And I really find it such a shame that I have no clue what-so-ever how to cook anything Peranakan at all.

I did have fun however over the weekend at Aunty Jenny's 60th birthday bash.

My family knows how to party. What more can I say?

 

I getting quite bored of Singapore now. Part of me misses the air over here, but a bigger part of me cannot let go of the lifestyle that I have in Dubai. I miss my room and my bed and my privacy and the silence that I have at home. I miss the convenience of takeaway deliveries. I miss walking around aimlessly on my day off. I miss my friends over there (although most of them are now in Singapore as well).

So rumours about me coming back and buying car/ setting up a flower shop/ being retrenched or whatever are all busted.

I like my job. No, I love my job....

Earlier this month, I was in Nice, Monaco and Monte Carlo. I never thought I'd used these 3 words in a sentence but I've been there now! I've been to Nice and Monaco and Monte Carlo and I loved it!

I have been haunted by bad dreams.

 

It started with this dream that the electricity supply at home was suddenly cut off. I could picture everything so clearly in the dream... my house, I was watching telly in the living room, the darkness, I walked over to the circuit panel, looked over my shoulder and saw a dark figure approach me. I screamed myself awake.

A few nights later, in between sleeping and being awake, I had this dream that I woke up in the night, tried to turn on my bedside lamp but there was no light. In my dream, I got out of bed, turned on my bedroom light and saw the bulb flicker and die off. Again, I walked over to the circuit panel and in my dream, as I stood in front of the circuit panel, I recalled the dream I had previously and remembered the dark figure approaching me. How was this possible? Again, I heard myself scream in my sleep. Was I realy asleep or was I sleep walking?

Two mornings ago, I awoke to the beeping sound of my cordless phone trying to charge itself. Strange I thought. I picked up the phone and saw that it was dead. I got out of bed and realised that I had no electricity so I opened my room door and saw my flatmate walking towards the circuit panel to flick some switches. Nothing happened so she went back to her room to ring maintenance. I thought I'd make myself useful in the meantime and walked towards the circuit panel. As I stood there looking at a bunch of switches that mean nothing to me, I remembered my (literally) electric dreams, froze and decided to have breakfast instead!

 

I'm glad there was daylight.

 

That very day, I told Wahedah about my dreams over the phone and she was spooked. Well, at least I didn't dream of teeth falling out because according to her, it's an indication of someone dying.

 

Yawn.. gosh I woke up at 6.20am this morning. I didn't think he would call but he did. He just reached home and told me he was away for such a long time because his dad passed away. We talked for 20 minutes before I decided that I was too tired to use my brains in a conversation and hung up. I tried to catch some shut eye before I realised that I was having this dream of my teeth falling out before the phone jolted me awake. I am so NOT kidding. Again, spooked, I got out of bed to have breakfast.

 

How can this be happening? I refuse to believe in superstitions so I Googled.

 

 

Chinese New Year will be here soon.

I like the money part of the dream interpretation.

 

So what did you dream of last night?